If you feel that you need to be in a hospital, I think you know what's right for you. I have been hospitalized for depression and suicidal thoughts before, and I can say that it helped during the immediate crisis, and also kept me from hurting myself. They also referred me to some other helpful mental health services. If you feel like hospitalization would help you, you can go to the emergency room and tell them you're having extreme depression or suicidal thoughts, and probably they will admit you if you are willing to be admitted. If you feel like you're in danger in anyway, from yourself or anyone else, just please go to the emergency room. She doesn't sound like a very good therapist, but I guess sometimes you have to make do with what you have. 

Hey Panda, just thinking of you. I've been considering drug treatment, since my the loss of my friend I am really struggling with addiction. Honestly though, I don't know if they would be able to handle me. There are some days that I literally cannot get out of bed, and all I do is cry, and I don't know if I would be capable of sticking to a routine, going to meetings, and watching other people with their friends and boyfriends, while I'm completely alone. but then, one reason I want to go is to be around people, to reduce the loneliness. Just couldn't sleep tonight. The sadness was too much. 

I hope you are doing okay. I don't know if you take medication, but maybe you need to get your medication adjusted, since you recently had a tragedy i  your life. stay strong, hun. (hugs)