Kathleen,
I'm so sorry to see that Rocky is gone! I've been wondering how you and he were doing but was afraid to ask...and I haven't been on here as much as last year. I know you have a huge hole missing in your chest. Know that you did everything you could for him. Now you have to take care of yourself...and I'm the one calling the kettle black. Be kind to yourself.

Having a bad day. Well, really a bad bunch of days. Might as well call it a bad bunch of weeks. I keep obsessing on the fact that Rocky is really and totally GONE from my life. Just gone. For the rest of my days. I don't know what has see me off so badly. I am missing him. My heart aches for the need of him. Literally it's pain and heavyness in my heart, like a physical thing!
My eyes flood constantly. If asked how I'm doing my face crumbles and it's not a pretty site.
My soul yearns for him, calls out for him!!! Just one last kiss, a look in his eyes, the sound of his voice, the smell of his neck and the feeling of his whiskers against my lips. I'm hanging onto these sensations as if my life depended on it, and it just might. What else do I have other than these things? My pain has become a real and physical sensation and I have no idea what to do with it.
Please come back to me...you are my most precious man, my heart and my soul. I am lost here. Please come back and find me. All I can do is wait. I'm waiting Rocky!! Please!!

Hi thanks for your comments we were married 43 years we met in school and I knew then she was the one.She lost her battle with cancer after a brave fight .I took care of her every day while she went through treatment.When she passed I got to lay with her and hold her as she went to someplace much better.I miss her so deeply words can't express the part of me that died with her.So I have to be here for my grandkids who were her life if not for them I would want to be with her now she would never forgive me if I didn't.