Monica

Cleveland, OH

United States

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About Me:
Wife, & motherless daughter
About my Loss:
My mother turned 75yrs old on Nov 2, 2015. I talked to her as usual on the phone for an hour, before suprising her with a visit with my children. She said she was fighting a bad cold, conjested and having a hard time getting the mucus to come up. She was in great spirits though and did not want me to postpone my visit. We had a few hrs of great conversation. She kept smiling and saying that she was just so glad to make it to 75yrs old!! I took some pics of her and the kids before we left and told her to please get in her bed so she could rest comfortably instead of at the kitchen table. Spoke with her through text later that evening. She said i made her day. I told her she made mine!! None of my brothers even remembered to call her n wish her a happy bday. That broke my heart, but told her to rest. She said she would try later. 14hrs later, almost midnight Nov 3,,,i got the call from my sister that she could not wake Mom. She was gone...the life in me left, i couldnt breathe. The shock is still, after 19wks n 2days, sooo debilitating!! Waves of overwhelming grief n sadness take hold like nothing anyone could ever possibly understand without truly living it!!!!

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  • Wendy Kwasniewski

    I understand your pain. I lost my beautiful Mom October 16,2015. Today I had a dream about her and me putting her in hospice to die all over again. It was like reliving it all over. I am crying today. I miss her so bad. Her birthday was a week ago too. Anyways, I understand your pain. You are not alone. 

  • Wendy Kwasniewski

    I can totally relate. I will pray that your suffering eases because I am not sure it will ever go all away. I thought I would be better by now but in some aspects I am worse. I am raising a 14 year old boy alone and cant afford to let him see me a wreck. Anyways, thanks for replying and I hope you have a great day.