Dear Christine I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved daughter. We can all remember the numbness and shock in those early months. Time stands still in the days after your child's death. It has been a year since I lost my 26 year old daughter in a car accident and in the beginning I never thought I would survive a year.  I started seeing a grief counselor and went to a monthly mother's group for the loss of a child, soon after Kyra died because I needed someone who would listen and understand the devastating pain. Try to let out all the emotions that come. I was afraid at first of my anger and thought I would go crazy. I would drive on a back road pull over and just scream in despair at God and the unfairness of it all. Just take it hour by hour that is all you can do in the beginning and know you are going to pull through in the end.  Just know you are not alone and there are many kind people in your life and here who will support you in anyway we can. Love and hugs to you Lynn