TANIA, I FOUND THAT I JUST ALLOW MY SELF TO SOB UNTIL IT HURTS. UNTIL CANT ANYMORE. ONE DAY I JUST STARTED SCREAMING. I JUST WANT TO GET IT ALL OUT. THIS SOMEHOW HELPS AND I PRAY IN TIME MAKES IT ALL EASIER TO ACCEPT. SOMEDAY ARE EASIER AND OTHERS I JUST START SOBBING. I THINK THIS IS ALL NORMAL FOR US. AND TRY TO REMEMBER WHAT YOUR MOM WOULD WANT YOU TO DO. AND TRY TO DO THAT. I CARE HONEY. NO EASY WAY FOR THIS EXCEPT RIGHT THROUGH.

I am sorry for your loss. That first year is hard. My mom has been gone for 3 now, but the pain hasnt ceased. I know what it is like to have no one to turn to. I would love to chat sometime.

I know how you feel completely. My mom was diagnosed May15 and passed away July 22nd. I was with her the first month then had to return home for 6 weeks. I went back and 3 weeks later she was gone. While we did some talking we really just enjoyed each others company. Sometimes that's just what you need. I still go through my good and bad days. Though the goods are getting longer. Days like yesterday when I had to go through the last of her stuff was very hard. My mother wrote poems and journal ed all the time. It helped me gain even more insight into the person she was. I am even working on making a book of her writings and artwork that she did. I just look for things I know she would like me to do. I still have her in my heart.