Thank you Michael for answering me. I too am the only one who wants to talk about my husband. If you would like to talk about your wife I am here, I will listen to your stories and answer .

Hi Debbie, I lost my husband 3 years ago this past March - and my wold collapsed. I got so tired of hearing things will get better, time heals, etc. somewhat like you I withdrew from family and friends for the most part. Time doesn't heal but life does go on and it is a choice to move forward or stay in place. I was fortunate to have grown children and grandchildren who refused to let me give up. Pushing me to join in activities but understanding when I was overwhelmed and withdrew. These days we share happy memories of their dad and Poppa - he can never be replaced and the he lives on in these memories. I am trying hard to get more involved - I don't want their memories of me to be as I am, and have been for the past 3 years. But I can't help being sad that we have a new granddaughter that he will never know or give crawling lessons to. Two new great grandsons who will never know him or hear the stories of when their grandma was young that only a grampa can share the right way.
If you ever want to talk or vent I'd be glad to listen. It does help I know from experience.