Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Monica Pace
Female
Seattle, WA
United States
Profile Information:
- About Me:
- I am a 50 year old woman, but I still feel the same as I did as a 25 year old! I have raised three wonderful sons, who are now 26, 23, and 21 years old. I recently adopted two kittens, maybe to fill the void, and they have been a godsend! First time cat person.
I guess there's a lot more to say, but I feel kind of weird writing all about ME. I was married for many years to my boy's father but we have been apart for 13 years. He is Italian, from Italy, and lives over there. I never dated in all of those 13 years, I just devoted myself to raising my kids. But on New Years Eve of 2007 I "accidently" met Damon at the gym! I certainly wasn't looking for it, but it was pretty much love at first sight and I never looked back! He brought 2 years and 2 months of pure joy to my life. - About my Loss:
- I lost the love of my life, Damon, on February 13th, to a brain aneurysm. Very sudden and right in my arms. He lasted two days in a coma, but there was no hope. He took his last breath in my arms as well. I am devastated. He was very healthy and had no symptoms. We had been together for a little over two years, we lived together and he was the best thing that every happened to me. I have a lot of family support, but nobody who has experienced such a loss. I need to connect with others who HAVE, people who GET it.
rodan99
Good to hear from you, I'm sorry that you had some bad days, I know the feeling. Rob's party at the cemetery was nice and everyone said that they were glad I did it and were happy to be there on Sunday. I guess I thought that doing all this would make yesterday, his actual Birthday easier but it didn't. I was a wreck and thankfully my family suprised me by planning to stay so that was good. I missed him not being here and that made me so sad. I'm trying to do the things I should and yet, like you I wonder what's the point, The one thing that gave me purpose was Rob and our life together and without him it seems so futile. I know that Damon and Rob want us to go on and find some kind of peace and even a new kind of happiness. So we keep moving forward but it can feel like three steps forward and two steps back sometimes right? I'm happy to hear that you've been having better days and wish more of the same for both of us. BTW, I'm feeling like I'm acknowleging more about the fact that Rob has passed, not acceptance because that sounds like I approve and I definitely don't approve of what happened How about ytou?
best,
Dan
Jun 9, 2010
Marie
Just checking to see how you're doing? Weekends are hard aren't they. We used to have so much fun going dancing and listening to live music around town. Don loved to dance as much as I did. We knew each other so well and had such a connection. Do you ever wonder if you could be that close with another person? We are close in age and hopefully will have a long life yet to live even though it's hard to think about, sharing all that I did with Don seems impossible to have with another person.
Is that a picture of you at the lake with Damon's ashes?
I wish you well, stay strong and think of happy times. Talk soon. XOXO
Jun 12, 2010
Marie
I really miss Don today and that wonderful feeling of being loved. I guess it's a feeling sorry for myself kinda day! Take care XOXO
Jun 20, 2010