Angela Beaver

Female

Riverview,Fl

United States

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About Me:
Hello my name is Angela. Im 26 Years old. I live in Florida with my boyfriend, but i call Washington state and Arizona my homes. I really dont know what to say at this time. Maybe as i get stronger more words will come
About my Loss:
My mom Joy Passed away on April 15,2009 of Lucemia. They tell me it was a rare form. Her death cirt. said she had it for 2 years. We did not know. She finnally told me she was sick on Christmas day 2008, and we found out it was cancer on New Years Eve 2008-2009. It went so fast. I was in Florida when all this was going on and could not get back home in time to be with her. She passed just a few days before i got there. I blame myself for not being there when i should of. She kept telling me to not come yet, i should not have listened. I will regret my choice for the rest of my life. My mom was and will always be my BEST FRIEND. We were very close. We spent all our time together. We lived together, traveled together. I miss her so much and i dont think i will ever heal from the pain i feel. Every day i think the pain will kill me. I think the numbness is just now finnally starting to wear off. This pain is just to real. I dont know how much longer i can survive this pain.

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  • anita latham abbott

    everyone needs something to hold on to when there is no one ther at the time.

    Aug 5, 2010

  • Kandi Broussard

    Angela,I know how you are feeling.  After I got out of the "shock" phase, I was in a much more painful phase.  At times, I still feel as if the pain is going to kill me.  It's like I am screaming for help and nobody is hearing me.  It has been a year and a month since my mom was murdered and I havn't killed myself or run away yet.  The extraordinary hurt and regret sometimes make me want to die.  I really do understand what you are feeling and I just wanted you to know that you are not alone.  I am not gonna lie to you and say that the hurt goes away.  It certainly hasn't for me.  I miss my mom more than ever and it feels like I just received that awful phone call yesterday.  I pray that you get through this as easily as possible.

    Sep 22, 2011

  • Emily

    Hi! I'm so sorry about your mom, feel free to message me anytime.

    Jan 25, 2013