Its tough Lynn.  My parents are married for 53 years so it is really tough to digest as I can see.  It might help moving back to the old neighbourhood.

It was very kind to respond.  I expect you know and appreciate how alone and lonely I feel.  I just feel there is no  point to anything any more and I drag myself out of bed each day to look after my cats, one is quite elderly, 18 years old, the other on about 12 years she was a stray  so not quite sure.

I have been going to bereavement councelling but all she kept saying last week was ' grief takes as long as it takes' which I felt very unhelpful.  I do not seem to be making any progress.  I have spent the weekend mostly in tears and the pain nearly breaks me in two.

It is only 4 years in July since I lost my mum and I was only coming to terms with that last year.  My dad passes exactly 21 years ago today.  It is so heart breaking not having Mark here to share all this with.

My most kindest thoughts to you and my admiration for your perseverence.