Maureen,

I just realized you just lost your husband. I'm so, so sorry. I lost mine on January 31st at age 45 He too was the love of my life and best friend. I'm still trying to graps that he is gone. Thanks for saying I"m young. :) I don't feel that way, but do worry about facing the future alone. I cannot imagine loving anyone the way I love Mike. He was totally my soul mate. Your husband looks like a really gentle soul.

Do you have support around you? You really need all the friends, true friends you can right now. The weekends and nights are the hardest. Try your best to get some rest and know in your heart of hearts that he is still near you, you just cannot see him. He looks like he loved you more than life itself and I know you loved him too. This is a long journey that we did not choose. Please know you are not alone in your grief.
Write to me as much or little as you want. Even if you just want to get your feelings off of your chest. I'm sure it is not any easier not matter what age you lose your soulmate. I did not find Mike until I was 37 years old. I had 13 wonderful years with that young man. Such a gentle soul. I pray he is at the side God and is happy beyond words.
Take care of yourself.

I will be thinking and praying for you. So, glad you got to spend that time at the beach together. What a beautiful memory to cherish.

Valerie