Charles, I am so sorry. I can't imagine facing that kind of situation with a love like that and having to make such a terrible decision. My husband and son were killed in a car accident a year ago, so I haven't gone through exactly what you are going through. I do know that had they not been killed instantly, i could have been faced with signing those papers myself for them. Had I been faced with that choice, I know they would have understood my anguish. Please forgive yourself. You are carrying such a terrible, heavy load. Allow yourself to put it down. Diana surely knows that she was the love of your life and that you did not want to have to ever make that choice. I am very sorry to hear about your mom as well. A double blow on such an awful date. Let us know how you are doing. We're here for you.