Patricia J. Jones

Female

Lake Villa, IL

United States

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About Me:
I am a former medical practice administrator who left my job one year ago to care for my husband. I lost my husband on December 3, 2010. I have 1 son, age 36, 1 daughter, age 32 and three beautiful grandsons (ages 2~10).
About my Loss:
My husband fought a brave and courageous battle against heart disease. He was on the UNOS list for cardiac transplant but it was not God's will. I am so lost and alone right now. I'm sitting in a very dark and lonely spot that seems to get worse each day. He was my love, my best friend, my everything.

Comment Wall:

  • corinne raviv

    Patricia.....I agree you can only relate to people that know how you feel. I still spend most of the day in tears...and the nights are worse. The thought of going to bed alone ....so I try and sleep a little on the sofa. It seems to be getting harder now that the reality is slowly sinking in

    Dec 23, 2010

  • tammi sue maczorowski

    hope you had a good christmas . i know it probably has been hard. this is the first christmas without my husband. i do miss him terribley. but i know i will see him some day.  i just wish i didn't have to wait along time. but my kids need me.  im here if you need to talk to me. take care tammi

    Dec 25, 2010

  • Dee Graham

    Thanks Patricia. It was nice to get a welcome right away.

    We are coming up on the third year anniversary of my partner's death. She was sick for a long time, about 10 years. My mother (94) died four months later, and she was disabled in a different way. Thanksgiving week my dad came down with pneumonia and the grief began to sweep over me again. He is home now, but requires lots more care these days. I am just very tired.

    Last night I was looking for supportive ears other than my same friends.

    Jan 18, 2011

  • Stephanie Dean

    It was so nice of you to make me feel so welcome. Your grief is so new. I remember walking around like a zombie just going through the motions back then. I thought that was awful. Yet I'm finding that now, 15 months out, the reality is REALLY hitting me. I haven't been able to look at his picture of talk about him. A year of shoveling feelings to the back shelf and all of a sudden, that shelf is overflowing and I never know when I'll be sobbing into my pillow or squeezing one of my chihuahuas so tight the tears just flowing freely.

     

    I want to go on with what's left whatever that is but I honestly don't know where to begin. Like your husband, mine was my world. I'm not even sure who I am without him.

     

    Again, thanks for the warm friendly greeting. Don't anyone hesitate to talk to me. I don't bite (Much) and when I'm not sad, I have a wonderful sense of humor and a great listening ear.....

    Jan 22, 2011