Hi Megan. I too have butterflies all over all the time. After my dad passed a light went out in a church I have on my counter and my moms lights went out too. Dads I think will be around forever. There are signs daily of him for me. My lil 4 year old keeps saying don't cry mama ...be happy for papa.
Thank you for the support. I do believe in something more. My dad always used to say that if he died he'd come back and flash the lights to let us know he was around. Well my parents had just built a new house a year before he died, no electrical problems at all. After he died the lights started flickering in the house, not a lot but enough to notice. I was having a really hard time one night and was crying really hard with my fiancee holding me, and I said "I just wish I could know for sure it was him" (Talking about the lights) Well the second I said that, the table light next to the bed (that had never flickered before) started literally strobing on and off for about 5-10 seconds. It never did anything like that ever again. But it made me feel so much better :-)
I lost my dad on August 3, 2011. I am so grateful for this forum - there are just some things no one can relate to unless they also lost a parent. I still have a very hard time coping, and I don't know when it will get any better. Life has lost all flavor for me. I don't know how to go on from here. I feel guilty for being a terrible wife and mother - I try to keep it together for my family, but it is so hard. Losing my dad makes me feel 5 years old again - I don't know how to face life without my dad. He was always optimistic and would give you reassurance that everything would work out fine. I did not get to talk to him as much as I would like to, but just knowing that he was there was all I needed. I miss him so.
i lost my dad several years ago to cancer....i think about him alot and miss our thanksgivings together....he always made a big meal...dad i love you, and hope u are well in heaven
Andrea....I feel the same way. I am 39 now and losing dad has left me feeling all alone. This will be our first holidays wo him and I'm dreading the whole festivities. I too am a mom of 3 boys trying to keep happy for them and positive ....when actually everything I do now feels so hard and takes work. Grief can really creep up on you when you least expect it. So you are not Alone in this painful reality of life without a dad.
Thank you so much for this group. I lost my dad three weeks ago. He had been sick for a long time so we thought we were ready to let him go. But grief has kicked our butts. The emptiness is overwhelming. Just so sad.
I am also thankful for this group and for the members that are compassionate enough to share their grief and stories with us/me. While nothings seems to make me feel "better" (and I do not fully believe I will ever feel that way) it helps to know that I am not alone and that others are out there making their way through life after their loss. I am so sorry for each of your losses...my heart goes out to you...
I know what you guys mean about nothing seeming to make you feel 'better'. And also about it making you feel like you were five years old again. I felt the same way. I lost my dad when I was 22, and I felt as if I had been orphaned. My dad always took such great care of me and my mom. He would fill our gas tanks up if he noticed it was running low or I'd come out in the morning to go to school and he would've cleaned my car off of any ice/snow. He was always at all my basketball games, horse shows, etc growing up. And I loved having him there. It's so odd for me now, as a mother and wife, to not have him to talk to and share this part of my life with him now as well. I'm tearing up writing this right now and he's been gone for over 4 years. It does get better, but I do still miss him dearly. I've been very fortunate and had never experienced a loss like this before him and my grandma. It confuses me not being able to stop hurting about something. I've always been the type of person to get over things rather quickly (loss of a pet, etc) and had always half-joked that I have issues with attachment.
Feeling the pressure of the holidays...I would love to feel happy and "thankful" but instead I feel miserable, cheated, and sad. This is my first major holiday without my dad and all I want is HIM! I know I should be thankful for the rest of my family, my husband, my job, and so much more...I even know that "I should focus on what I have and not on what I don't have" but there is a hole and absence in my heart that refuses to be filled and I am NOT thankful for that. No amount of thankfulness for the rest of my family makes up for this glaring emptiness that is left. I do not know how to get through these days with any resemblance of sanity. The only thing that keeps me "together" is making sure my mom does not experience my true feelings and feel any sadder than she already does. For her I will keep it all in and push through...but this is NOT going to easy and NOT going to be pretty. I miss my dad more and more with each passing day.
Heather......I agree with you. I am dreading this week....used to look forward to the holidays. Not this one....feeling lost and sad...feeling very cheated in my life.
Last thanksgiving was the last holiday i spent with my dad. He collapsed on that day and it was the start of the end. He died in Feb. This will be the first major holiday without him and the thought of his empty chair at dinner breaks my heart.I don't know how I'll manage. I have a handicapped sister who is thrilled to be home, and mommy has alzsheimers and no memory of his death. I'm afraid she'll ask where he is though she rarely does. My heart breaks not just for me but my whole family, trying to keep it together for everyone, while trying not to cry. I don't know how I'll live through the day.
i havent had my dad in about 10 years...its still fresh....thanksgiving is the hardest as he always made these wonderful meals...i wish he was still here....i miss him so much, he was the best dad in the whole world....i love you dad with all my heart and soul, and i know u would be happy that ive found a man to love and love me....god bless my dear father....im crying as i write this, maybe i needed to get this out....i love u so much always....
My dad loved pumpkin pie ..I sure wish he was still here. He really is missed especially this week. When I lost my dad ...its like experiencing a whole new world
Nothing is the same. I sure don't sleep well anymore...thinking of dad ..I wake up and wish it was a dream that he's not here.
ur not alonehun, we all support each other, this is the most loving community, in all groups...i have gotten so much solace from being here and talking and sharing...ss for your loss hun....lost my dad almost 10 years ago but the hurt never goes away....miss him so much, wish he was still here....
my dad would make the best pumpkin pie homemade for thanksgiving, and he made a killer apple pie too, made with lipton iced tea mix....wish i still had his recipes....you will be ok christian, and we are here for you hun
having a really hard time today, not sure if it's because of the holidays or what. this will be my first thanksgiving in my 28 years that i'm not home with my family. i'll be celebrating it with my husband and friends but i'm really not looking forward to it. i'm feeling guilty about not being with my mom and brother but i think this is for the best, the thought of just the three of us is too sad.
it's been almost 4 months since my dad passed suddenly and while the bad days aren't as intense they're still really interfering with my life. i'm having a hard time motivating myself, especially when it comes to my business. it's failing and i just can't seem to dig myself out of this hole, i just don't have the energy. my main motivation was making my dad proud and not having encouragement from him is so hard. i find myself picking up the phone to call him for advice all the time. i even got excited about a christmas present idea for him the other day - then remembered he's not here anymore.
i want to be able to focus on things that will better my life but i just feel so overwhelmed right now that all i seem to do is sit on the couch and worry. my mom just brought his ashes up for me and it has just made it so much more real. we never had a memorial for him (he didn't want one) so i guess it's all just hitting me again.
i really want to be able to feel joy again - both for myself and others. i've had happy moments since he passed but they don't seem to last very long. i just miss him so much, i don't know what to do.
Plans for the upcoming holidays. Thursday will be the hardest on my mom and the family who lived in the town with my folks. They have lots of Thanksgiving memories of him. I lived out of town so didn't have Thanksgiving memories of him. Our family party is the Sat after Thanksgiving and that will be hard. What I plan to do is:
I had a big 16 x 20 pic blown up of my dad to use at the funeral home. I left it at my brother's house cause I completely lost it in Walgreens when we were framing it and couldn't look at it without thinking about that. Anyway I asked my brother to bring it to the party.
At the party we are making a video of fingerplays, nursery rhymes, etc for a new, soon-to-be-born grand niece. I am going to show her (the baby) the big picture of Poppie and tell her who he is. Then I am going to video "Here is the church" fingerplay which I remember him teaching me. I also am taking his hat that he always wore and put it in a chair for him at the party. It's just what I feel like we should do.
Megan - I know exactly how you feel. It is very hard to go on with life as usual. My dad passed away in August, and I don't know how long this lack of motivation and joy will last. My main goal for this holiday season is to just get through it the best I can. I think we will all feel better once January comes - holidays are just the toughest times. Just hang in there - you are not alone in this.
For megan, know how you feel. my father was my biggest supporter and when he passed i realized how much and how hard i worked in my career to make him proud. but he's gone and i wonder why bother. but my work saved me. my clients saved me. it gave me something else to think about and things happen that i just know he has a hand in somehow. it keeps me going. i'm still working to make him proud, now i just tell myself that from where he is now, he can help me more than ever. makes things a little easier.
Marie...think that is nice how you're honoring your dad this year. I too worked very hard to please dad and make him proud. I try to remember now he's with me now wherever my boys and I go. I just have to remember that ....but still wish things were different ..still wish he had a second chance at life with me.
My dad loved having everyone sitting at one table. He never felt more at peace than knowing we were all together with him. He was the glue that kept us all together and more than anything I want him to greet me at the door and to hear his voice make the traditional family toast. Christian I too wish it were all just a dream...just a terrible nightmare. I think that is how I get through days sometimes...not thinking of the reality that I now have. Tomorrow will be one of the hardest days so far...I just want my daddy back.
My brother decided to sell one of my dads trucks today of all days and y mom just went along with it. Really. Feel like they just trying to get rid of all his stuff too soon. Way to soon. And on Thanksgiving? Unbelievable. I'm very sad. And they don't seem to care.
christianlee - i'm sorry, that's a really terrible day he picked. i haven't been able to get rid of anything my dad gave me and i'm not really looking forward to christmas when i'll be home. my mom wants to start going through his stuff then and i am just dreading it.
marie - i'm the same way, i can get through days without crying but others i am a total wreck. just try to take it day by day and know that it's normal. the holidays are extra hard, just try to do the best you can and know that it's ok to feel sad.
i know, it's been 4 months for me and just seems way too soon. i read somewhere that it's best to wait for at least 6 months to go through things or you might regret some decisions because you're usually not thinking rationally at this stage. i know there's not a "right" way to do anything, just do what's best for you. my brother is sort of pushing it on me and my mom too, not sure why.
marie - about the good days and bad - I guess it's normal. I feel the same way. Most days I cry on the way to work, or on the way home. Some days are better than others. Holidays: I can't wait for them to be over this year... just try to make it through...
This might sound dumb but I always feel better in the shower. My dad was a Water Superintendant. He was very into purity of water and environmentalism. Some of that has rubbed off on me, and i find showers very 'cleansing' I guess. He was also big in charity and giving back. He'd do river cleanups, raise money for kid's toys for tots, etc. Even though it's hard during the holidays for him not to be here, I feel like it's my duty to carry on what he would normally have been doing. @Christianlee- I had a very hard time going through my dad's things. I kept things that I knew were important to him and meant something. It was hard but I couldn't keep everything even though if I didn't keep it I felt horrible. I miss him more because he never got to meet my daughter or see me get married. He was so excited about me getting married and it hurt having him not there.
I hope this is the proper place to put this. My mother passed away a year and a half ago from ovarian cancer. She was only 67. Now my dad is dating and I feel like I am losing him. He spends more time with his girlfriend than his children and its tearing me apart. I love him and want to do things with him, but he always has something to do with his girlfriend. I ended up having Thanksgiving with my ex husband because my ex didn't want me to be alone because my dad decided to take a cruise with his girlfriend. I try to call him at least once a week but he only wants to talk for five minutes and then says he has to go. It's so awkward between us and I have no idea why or what to do about it. Any suggestions would be appreciated. Thanks!
I am making a memory quilt for my mom this Christmas. My dad passed away in August. I took some of my favorite pictures to make the quilt. It sure is hard to do this. It makes me miss my dad even more. When we first started (the whole project was my teenage daughter's idea) I couldn't stop crying when I was selecting pictures. I feel so guilty when I cry in front of her. She is very sensitive, and it really shakes her when she sees me so unhappy. People say it gets easier as time goes by - I just don't know when that will be.
missing my dad today missing his voice,smell,touch,and smile:(xmas was his fav holiday and its his birthday its scary the closer it gets knowing he wont be here and we will have to celebrate it alone..i miss you daddy
Yes...dreading it too. I haven't even bought Christmas presents yet. Just seems like my holiday spirit is gone..not sure if it will ever return. Christmas wont be Christmas without you Dad.
It's nearly 2 years since I saw my Dad Suffer in Silent AGONY Dying from Cancer after I suggested to my mother that it would be better for her nerves if he was taken care of in a hospice which she and my 'brother' Instantly Arranged before Christmas 2009 and I still Feel Guilty, EmOtIoNaLLy ToRn and uPsEt about my 'part' in this and now I See How COLD my 'brother' and SeLf cEnTrEd my 'sister' Really are, but at least Thanks to my Best and ONLY TRUE FRIEND, who TOLD Me, "Be Kind To Your Mother (For she may noT live much longer but could up to 10 years as her Father who Died 1 Month after mine Lost his wife in 2000)"; I'm at least phoning her even though NONE of my 'family' are 'thinking' about how aLoNe I've Been here FAR away from their Getting Together for Every Holiday. "Actually John", my 'brother' Coldly said last year, "you never come up in our conversations"..How Cruel can a 'family' be ? God Help me Survive Another Christmas, which Thanks to my Best And ONLY TRUE FRIEND, I Hope to.
Thank GOD for my Mother and Father, through whom I Inherited my LoVe of Music which is helping me get tHrOuGh these VERY EMOTIONALLY CHALLENGING Times 'living' ALONE as I have 'chosen' to. I used to LOVE this song when I was a 'teenager' and Hope it Brings you Love & Hope but Fewer Tears as Time 'marches' oN to the 'EnD' for ALL of us as it SURELY IS COMING. I Just HOPE I can BELIEVE in The Resurrection my 'church' 'taught' me to 'believe' in as I NEED TO BELIEVE IN HOPE as there has been VERY little of that in my 'SeLf cEnTReD FEAR Based Formerly Cynical Analytical Mind. However in my HeArT, I HOPE there IS a 'GOD' and a REAL Place called "HEAVEN" where I NEED to Learn to TRUST & BELIEVE IN as my 'trust' with most 'human' being$ has been ShAtTeReD LONG Ago 'thanx' to my Mother whose DENIED Alcoholic ABUSIVE VERY $ELF CeNtReD famiLLy' was FAR WoRsE than my Father's. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=00l6lpyMJuI
ERES TU (Ray Conniff, 1974) Eres tu! Every wonderful sensation Yes, it's true! T...he touch of love in the night, that's you! (Eres tu) A promise of laughter...2 minutes ago
Here are some more Versions of this Beautiful Song which I'm Sharing with my ONLY TRUE FRIENDS
Anyone else have those moments that you look at pictures and you can't stop crying? I am so busy all day that when I have time to think, my dad is the only one on my mind. I am really dreading the holidays without him; however I have a 2 year old that is looking forward to Christmas. My son is definitely making this more tolerable but I still hurt horribly. I know my dad would not want me to mourn his loss but remember all the good times we had together.
Yes...I look at Dads photos all the time. Hardest part was taking my boys to the Santa store and not buying anything for their papa this year. Oh so hard and tears just flow.
Brandi Bangs
Oct 26, 2011
christianlee
Oct 27, 2011
Amber Timmons
Thank you for the support. I do believe in something more. My dad always used to say that if he died he'd come back and flash the lights to let us know he was around. Well my parents had just built a new house a year before he died, no electrical problems at all. After he died the lights started flickering in the house, not a lot but enough to notice. I was having a really hard time one night and was crying really hard with my fiancee holding me, and I said "I just wish I could know for sure it was him" (Talking about the lights) Well the second I said that, the table light next to the bed (that had never flickered before) started literally strobing on and off for about 5-10 seconds. It never did anything like that ever again. But it made me feel so much better :-)
Oct 27, 2011
Brandi Bangs
Oct 27, 2011
christianlee
Oct 27, 2011
Andrea Clark
I lost my dad on August 3, 2011. I am so grateful for this forum - there are just some things no one can relate to unless they also lost a parent. I still have a very hard time coping, and I don't know when it will get any better. Life has lost all flavor for me. I don't know how to go on from here. I feel guilty for being a terrible wife and mother - I try to keep it together for my family, but it is so hard. Losing my dad makes me feel 5 years old again - I don't know how to face life without my dad. He was always optimistic and would give you reassurance that everything would work out fine. I did not get to talk to him as much as I would like to, but just knowing that he was there was all I needed. I miss him so.
Nov 19, 2011
Rachel Lynn Schuler
i lost my dad several years ago to cancer....i think about him alot and miss our thanksgivings together....he always made a big meal...dad i love you, and hope u are well in heaven
Nov 20, 2011
christianlee
Nov 20, 2011
marie
Thank you so much for this group. I lost my dad three weeks ago. He had been sick for a long time so we thought we were ready to let him go. But grief has kicked our butts. The emptiness is overwhelming. Just so sad.
Nov 20, 2011
christianlee
Nov 20, 2011
Heather Dorogi
I am also thankful for this group and for the members that are compassionate enough to share their grief and stories with us/me. While nothings seems to make me feel "better" (and I do not fully believe I will ever feel that way) it helps to know that I am not alone and that others are out there making their way through life after their loss. I am so sorry for each of your losses...my heart goes out to you...
Nov 20, 2011
Amber Timmons
I know what you guys mean about nothing seeming to make you feel 'better'. And also about it making you feel like you were five years old again. I felt the same way. I lost my dad when I was 22, and I felt as if I had been orphaned. My dad always took such great care of me and my mom. He would fill our gas tanks up if he noticed it was running low or I'd come out in the morning to go to school and he would've cleaned my car off of any ice/snow. He was always at all my basketball games, horse shows, etc growing up. And I loved having him there. It's so odd for me now, as a mother and wife, to not have him to talk to and share this part of my life with him now as well. I'm tearing up writing this right now and he's been gone for over 4 years. It does get better, but I do still miss him dearly. I've been very fortunate and had never experienced a loss like this before him and my grandma. It confuses me not being able to stop hurting about something. I've always been the type of person to get over things rather quickly (loss of a pet, etc) and had always half-joked that I have issues with attachment.
Nov 20, 2011
Heather Dorogi
Feeling the pressure of the holidays...I would love to feel happy and "thankful"
but instead I feel miserable, cheated, and sad. This is my first major holiday without my dad and all I want is HIM! I know I should be thankful for the rest of my family, my husband, my job, and so much more...I even know that "I should focus on what I have and not on what I don't have" but there is a hole and absence in my heart that refuses to be filled and I am NOT thankful for that. No amount of thankfulness for the rest of my family makes up for this glaring emptiness that is left. I do not know how to get through these days with any resemblance of sanity. The only thing that keeps me "together" is making sure my mom does not experience my true feelings and feel any sadder than she already does. For her I will keep it all in and push through...but this is NOT going to easy and NOT going to be pretty. I miss my dad more and more with each passing day.
Nov 21, 2011
christianlee
Nov 21, 2011
Elke
Nov 21, 2011
Rachel Lynn Schuler
i havent had my dad in about 10 years...its still fresh....thanksgiving is the hardest as he always made these wonderful meals...i wish he was still here....i miss him so much, he was the best dad in the whole world....i love you dad with all my heart and soul, and i know u would be happy that ive found a man to love and love me....god bless my dear father....im crying as i write this, maybe i needed to get this out....i love u so much always....
Nov 22, 2011
Rachel Lynn Schuler
i loved both my parents, so glad i had them....just wish i had long with them....
Nov 22, 2011
christianlee
Nothing is the same. I sure don't sleep well anymore...thinking of dad ..I wake up and wish it was a dream that he's not here.
Nov 22, 2011
christianlee
Nov 22, 2011
Rachel Lynn Schuler
ur not alonehun, we all support each other, this is the most loving community, in all groups...i have gotten so much solace from being here and talking and sharing...ss for your loss hun....lost my dad almost 10 years ago but the hurt never goes away....miss him so much, wish he was still here....
Nov 22, 2011
Rachel Lynn Schuler
my dad would make the best pumpkin pie homemade for thanksgiving, and he made a killer apple pie too, made with lipton iced tea mix....wish i still had his recipes....you will be ok christian, and we are here for you hun
Nov 22, 2011
christianlee
Nov 22, 2011
Megan
having a really hard time today, not sure if it's because of the holidays or what. this will be my first thanksgiving in my 28 years that i'm not home with my family. i'll be celebrating it with my husband and friends but i'm really not looking forward to it. i'm feeling guilty about not being with my mom and brother but i think this is for the best, the thought of just the three of us is too sad.
it's been almost 4 months since my dad passed suddenly and while the bad days aren't as intense they're still really interfering with my life. i'm having a hard time motivating myself, especially when it comes to my business. it's failing and i just can't seem to dig myself out of this hole, i just don't have the energy. my main motivation was making my dad proud and not having encouragement from him is so hard. i find myself picking up the phone to call him for advice all the time. i even got excited about a christmas present idea for him the other day - then remembered he's not here anymore.
i want to be able to focus on things that will better my life but i just feel so overwhelmed right now that all i seem to do is sit on the couch and worry. my mom just brought his ashes up for me and it has just made it so much more real. we never had a memorial for him (he didn't want one) so i guess it's all just hitting me again.
i really want to be able to feel joy again - both for myself and others. i've had happy moments since he passed but they don't seem to last very long. i just miss him so much, i don't know what to do.
Nov 22, 2011
marie
Plans for the upcoming holidays. Thursday will be the hardest on my mom and the family who lived in the town with my folks. They have lots of Thanksgiving memories of him. I lived out of town so didn't have Thanksgiving memories of him. Our family party is the Sat after Thanksgiving and that will be hard. What I plan to do is:
I had a big 16 x 20 pic blown up of my dad to use at the funeral home. I left it at my brother's house cause I completely lost it in Walgreens when we were framing it and couldn't look at it without thinking about that. Anyway I asked my brother to bring it to the party.
At the party we are making a video of fingerplays, nursery rhymes, etc for a new, soon-to-be-born grand niece. I am going to show her (the baby) the big picture of Poppie and tell her who he is. Then I am going to video "Here is the church" fingerplay which I remember him teaching me. I also am taking his hat that he always wore and put it in a chair for him at the party. It's just what I feel like we should do.
What do y'all think?
Nov 22, 2011
Andrea Clark
Megan - I know exactly how you feel. It is very hard to go on with life as usual. My dad passed away in August, and I don't know how long this lack of motivation and joy will last. My main goal for this holiday season is to just get through it the best I can. I think we will all feel better once January comes - holidays are just the toughest times. Just hang in there - you are not alone in this.
Nov 22, 2011
Megan
Thank you Andrea, it's nice to know I'm not alone in these feelings. Hoping for some peace in January.
Nov 22, 2011
Elke
Nov 22, 2011
christianlee
Nov 23, 2011
Heather Dorogi
My dad loved having everyone sitting at one table. He never felt more at peace than knowing we were all together with him. He was the glue that kept us all together and more than anything I want him to greet me at the door and to hear his voice make the traditional family toast. Christian I too wish it were all just a dream...just a terrible nightmare. I think that is how I get through days sometimes...not thinking of the reality that I now have. Tomorrow will be one of the hardest days so far...I just want my daddy back.
Nov 23, 2011
christianlee
Nov 23, 2011
christianlee
Nov 24, 2011
marie
Some days I do fine and some days I weep off and on all day. This is normal I guess? Or a new normal anyways?
Nov 29, 2011
marie
A friend said, "going through the motions" of the holidays. That's how I feel. Just hoping they will hurry up and get over!! Staying busy as I can. U?
Nov 29, 2011
Megan
christianlee - i'm sorry, that's a really terrible day he picked. i haven't been able to get rid of anything my dad gave me and i'm not really looking forward to christmas when i'll be home. my mom wants to start going through his stuff then and i am just dreading it.
marie - i'm the same way, i can get through days without crying but others i am a total wreck. just try to take it day by day and know that it's normal. the holidays are extra hard, just try to do the best you can and know that it's ok to feel sad.
Nov 29, 2011
christianlee
Nov 29, 2011
Megan
i know, it's been 4 months for me and just seems way too soon. i read somewhere that it's best to wait for at least 6 months to go through things or you might regret some decisions because you're usually not thinking rationally at this stage. i know there's not a "right" way to do anything, just do what's best for you. my brother is sort of pushing it on me and my mom too, not sure why.
Nov 29, 2011
christianlee
Nov 29, 2011
Andrea Clark
marie - about the good days and bad - I guess it's normal. I feel the same way. Most days I cry on the way to work, or on the way home. Some days are better than others. Holidays: I can't wait for them to be over this year... just try to make it through...
Nov 29, 2011
Amber Timmons
This might sound dumb but I always feel better in the shower. My dad was a Water Superintendant. He was very into purity of water and environmentalism. Some of that has rubbed off on me, and i find showers very 'cleansing' I guess. He was also big in charity and giving back. He'd do river cleanups, raise money for kid's toys for tots, etc. Even though it's hard during the holidays for him not to be here, I feel like it's my duty to carry on what he would normally have been doing. @Christianlee- I had a very hard time going through my dad's things. I kept things that I knew were important to him and meant something. It was hard but I couldn't keep everything even though if I didn't keep it I felt horrible. I miss him more because he never got to meet my daughter or see me get married. He was so excited about me getting married and it hurt having him not there.
Nov 29, 2011
Ilana Rabone
I hope this is the proper place to put this. My mother passed away a year and a half ago from ovarian cancer. She was only 67. Now my dad is dating and I feel like I am losing him. He spends more time with his girlfriend than his children and its tearing me apart. I love him and want to do things with him, but he always has something to do with his girlfriend. I ended up having Thanksgiving with my ex husband because my ex didn't want me to be alone because my dad decided to take a cruise with his girlfriend. I try to call him at least once a week but he only wants to talk for five minutes and then says he has to go. It's so awkward between us and I have no idea why or what to do about it. Any suggestions would be appreciated. Thanks!
Dec 2, 2011
Andrea Clark
I am making a memory quilt for my mom this Christmas. My dad passed away in August. I took some of my favorite pictures to make the quilt. It sure is hard to do this. It makes me miss my dad even more. When we first started (the whole project was my teenage daughter's idea) I couldn't stop crying when I was selecting pictures. I feel so guilty when I cry in front of her. She is very sensitive, and it really shakes her when she sees me so unhappy. People say it gets easier as time goes by - I just don't know when that will be.
Dec 7, 2011
christianlee
Dec 7, 2011
sara kephart
missing my dad today missing his voice,smell,touch,and smile:(xmas was his fav holiday and its his birthday its scary the closer it gets knowing he wont be here and we will have to celebrate it alone..i miss you daddy
Dec 9, 2011
christianlee
Dec 9, 2011
John B
It's nearly 2 years since I saw my Dad Suffer in Silent AGONY Dying from Cancer after I suggested to my mother that it would be better for her nerves if he was taken care of in a hospice which she and my 'brother' Instantly Arranged before Christmas 2009 and I still Feel Guilty, EmOtIoNaLLy ToRn and uPsEt about my 'part' in this and now I See How COLD my 'brother' and SeLf cEnTrEd my 'sister' Really are, but at least Thanks to my Best and ONLY TRUE FRIEND, who TOLD Me, "Be Kind To Your Mother (For she may noT live much longer but could up to 10 years as her Father who Died 1 Month after mine Lost his wife in 2000)"; I'm at least phoning her even though NONE of my 'family' are 'thinking' about how aLoNe I've Been here FAR away from their Getting Together for Every Holiday. "Actually John", my 'brother' Coldly said last year, "you never come up in our conversations"..How Cruel can a 'family' be ? God Help me Survive Another Christmas, which Thanks to my Best And ONLY TRUE FRIEND, I Hope to.
Dec 12, 2011
John B
Ray Conniff - Eres Tú
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwtLT3bMKWs
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JB
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Dec 12, 2011
christianlee
Dec 12, 2011
christianlee
Dec 12, 2011
Linda
Anyone else have those moments that you look at pictures and you can't stop crying? I am so busy all day that when I have time to think, my dad is the only one on my mind. I am really dreading the holidays without him; however I have a 2 year old that is looking forward to Christmas. My son is definitely making this more tolerable but I still hurt horribly. I know my dad would not want me to mourn his loss but remember all the good times we had together.
Dec 15, 2011
christianlee
Dec 16, 2011