Lost my dad 1-2-17 from dementia and malignant tumor.  Grieving never started till weeks later when my world crashed.  Everyday, memories of woulda, coulda and shoulda haunt me.  Too many what if's.  Never want to wake up.  Caring for him after hospital meds destroyed his mind.  Modern science and doctors are pathetic and I voiced my anger to the medical staff who were unable to give me a logical response!!!  A living hell for my dad and I.  I would endure his agony again and again