Life will never be the same, unfortunately we have to learn to manage. Seems unfair, I think anger will always reside in all of us.  Keep praying for comfort and peace.

I am missing mom.Today is no different then any other day ,the days are just filled with sadness! It's hard mom trying to live without you bye myside.People don't understand,Matt I think sometimes is the same as the rest of them.I all never be the same ,never.

My mom oh my sweet mother is gone from my life and so many days and all sadness all inside of me.I try and hold my head up ,when people talk I hear but its not ubsorded.I am breathing and my heart is beating and it kills me that thats the way it is.

I so want to hold you in my arms and tell you how much I love my best friend YOU!

Love me-kim

Nacy Dynes,

I understand about your not being able to listen to music. My mother passed almost 2.5 years ago and was a librarian. I still cannot pick up and finish a book. We were reading books by the pound after she retired at age 77. She passed 3 weeks before her 86th birthday. I still miss her every day. I'm sorry for all of us in the group. There is nothing like a mothers love. I plan to gather up all of her books and transform her room at our house into a tribute library. Hopefully after that I can go in there and have peace. I still cannot go in there with out crying. There is much for me to do since she left me in charge but there are still days I just can't get myself to pack up any of her stuff.

Its tough as ever and the key is to understand that I will never be the same.  Even years from now the pain is there but as Tans said a few months ago, at least some of the time I try to think of the infinite talks and conversation from the time I was born.  The infinite numbers between 0 and 1.

Even 4.5 years later I'm realising that I still haven't worked through mom's death. It's been affecting my work and I have to get help. Like Danny says we will never be the same. But just trying to get through every day and think of her as much as I can. Miss you mom

Yes Tans as my math professor said, nothing stops us from thinking of the parent 24x7.  Yes never the same and while every day is not a grind, its a strange feeling as I walk through the streets and navigate my way through the week.  Keep thinking as much as you can and also try to make some new contacts, on this site and elsewhere.  Its just not going to be the same and that is the only thing I know.  Learning.  Surviving. 

Accept that we will never be the same..also that the world and the city you live in will never be the same in a sense. 

Miss you so much Mom.You won't be there ....EVER.

Well maybe not actually but work on your bond all the time and it might be still there in another form ?

My mom died on June 2nd after an 8 month battle with lung cancer. I miss her so much. Our relationship was complicated but in the end we said everything we needed to and I know that she knew how much I loved her. In some ways I am at peace with her death because I knew there was realistically no other outcome. A part of me is so angry at her because she died of lung cancer after smoking for 50+ years. I can't remember a time I wasn't trying to get her to quit. It's just such a waste and as much as I miss her, I feel like she didn't care about me enough to stop smoking. She continued to smoke until just a few weeks before her death. She was only 69 years old. I understand addiction. She had almost 40 years of sobriety from alcohol and prescription drugs but essentially died from her addiction to tobacco. It all just feels so messed up. I love her, I miss her and I can't believe I will never be able to pick up the phone and call her. I just miss my mom so much. 

I miss my beautiful mom every day. I cannot take when people say to move on. it is so hard.

My mom is dying. she has leukemia with about 12 months to live. I'm spending as much time as possible with her but its hard seeing someone die that you love so much.

So sorry to hear about your mom. The hardest part is enduring watching them suffer. Those memories haunt me.

You're right, fashionlover. I can't stop thinking about it.

Donald Maddrey, It is one of the most difficult things you will ever do, but my advice to you is to spend as much time with her as you can. Even if you are doing nothing more than sitting beside her it will mean so much to her and if you don't you will regret it when she is gone. Do whatever you can to ease her pain. At the end I wasn't able to fully ease my Mother's physical discomfort, but I tried my best to ease her emotional distress. Hug her, kiss her, tell her you love her, and how grateful you are for all that she has done. I would give anything to put my arms around my mom just once more. I am sorry that you have to go through this. I think the anticipatory grief makes it all the worse. xx

sending you love, Nancy...I hear you and indentify with what you are going through. My Mama suffered too and everyday I remember her pain. I have faith that with healing, the hard traumatic memories will go away and be replaced by joyful ones. We just have to ride this painful grief wave...I can tell that you were a light in your Mom's darkness, what a gift. Crying with you....big hug

Oh Megan, Happy Birthday to your Mom...What you are planning today sounds so beautiful. I am sorry that people are being so unsupportive:( you deserve to feel tenderness around your grief. I spend a lot of time alone because I want to heal and honor every bit of my pain. I have lost friends through this journey. I have gained self respect and an open heart...sending you love and support...

Kim I do so feel like that too. I hope that your journey brings you some hope in time. All I know is I need to honour my grief. Some days are totally unbearable, one does not know how one makes it to the end of the day. Such deep sorrow leaving   ones heart   butchered the day my mother drew her last breath. My best friend, the love of life, my heart, my dearest Mother. I miss you ever so. Loads of love, I'll never be the same, I am strong for you like you want  me to be and you will always be with me. xx

I had been my mother's caregiver for 7 years. I stopped working in 2005 to be her caregiver. I think those 7 years were the most rewarding of my life.

After my mother passed I attended a 13 week class of a group called "Grief Share". You can find meetings in almost every town or city. You meet with others who have also suffered a loss. This group got me through the worst of it.

I was my mother's caregiver, for 7 years my world was built around her. The rest of my family did little or nothing to help. 3 times she was in the hospital or nursing care (for a couple of months at a time). Not one person in my family went to visit her. They just didn't want to be bothered. They don't understand why I've been grieving over the loss for 2 years. Their lives were not invested in caring for her. Mine was.

I miss her so much.

Hi Nancy, quick story about my mother and her sense of humor. She had dementia, lost most of her memory. One morning I went into her room, and asked her..."Mom, what is your name?" (did this to get her memory started)....she thought for a few moments and said "Frances, my name is Frances"....I said, "That's right, your name is Frances. Now what's my name?"...She looked at me, pointed her finger and said...."I'm calling you stupid"....I said..."What?"...she said, "Anyone who can't remember their own name is stupid".....LOL She still had it.

John Barry and Nancy Dynes, you two are earth angels. Loving and caring for another is why we are here. thank you for taking such good care of your Mamas.  sending peace...

I just  lost my beautiful  mom in such a tragic  horrific  way, and I   am so devastated  how she suffered in the  hospital  and  that her beautiful  smiles  and kind gentleness  is no longer  with  me. I cry everyday . I  lost beautiful  mama  a week  ago at 89.

The path of grief.

This is truly the hardest most painful thing I have ever experienced in my life. The sense off loss, the loneliness. It is unbearable. 

Losing  mom has created  such a void and sadness in my life. This is truly  the most  painful  and tragic experience  in my life .  I  do not  see how  I will  recover with  out my loving mother  so witty and kind she was.

My Mama died 7 months ago. I have an undercurrent of sorrow that is always with me, I still feel very lost. My Mama was my life and now that she is gone, I have to find a new way, a new life. I cry everyday, how could it be any other way? I had her in my daily life for 43 years. My heart is ripped open....I understand the pain...bless you all that are hurting. May we find the strength to grieve well...

Charity, bless you . I feel your pain . You described my life in your experience . My mom was my life. All my decisions always included my mom or her wisdom . She was my hero . I am a lost soul without her.

Oh Angela, I send you love. We are in this together, All of us that are hurting and lost and searching for a new life. be gentle with you, as I will too....hug

There are two parties to the suffering that death inflicts; and in the apportionment of the suffering the survivor takes the brunt. - Arnold Toynbee

August whatever I don't really watch the date much anymore .Unless it is a date that had to do with my sweet Mom.The whole world just keeps going even thou I myself have really stopped truly living.

I am here but don't really care anymore.I hurt myself the other day and yup there it is it did not faze me one bit.I not only miss my mother but I miss her and I .We had this bond ,a very special bond I was the person that gave her so much meaning to stay in this life and mom was mine! God why don't you know, can't you see the torcher this has been on me.I miss her I need her more ! My mom my best friend my one and only .

Love you mom .Please send me some more signs please I need them.

Love your baby 

Hi Kim:)  my heart hurts for you. I lost my very dear Mama too, so I understand some of your pain. We were so very close as well. I am sad that you hurt yourself:( Is there a friend or someone you can talk with? this is the time when you need extra tenderness from yourself and others. You deserve to carve out a life for yourself now. I know it hurts but I also know that you are still alive and your life has meaning. I am with you on this painful grief journey..please love yourself...hug,your Mom would want you to be ok and even happy one day.

Yesterday marked the 2 year anniversary of my beloved mother's passing. I cannot believe it has been two years since I have seen and talked with her. She was my best friend. Two years later and the pain is still overwhelming! I miss you so much mom.

Grief Share  For those, like myself, who are looking for support. Here is the group that helped me through the worst of it. This is a group of people who have recently lost someone, even if it has been years. You need to meet and talk to those who share your experiences.

http://www.griefshare.org/

Today is my mother's birthday. I miss her more and more every day. I can't see light at the end of this long dark tunnel I am in. I just pray to God that I can see a hint of light. 

Nancy, your grief journey is normal. Everything you are feeling is part of grief. I am sorry that your Dad is being so insensitive. My Mama flew away 7 months ago and I am still cannot look at her pictures or go to places around town. I have learned that grief has no time line and to trust my bodies wisdom. Be kind to yourself and don't let anyone tell you how to grieve. Your heart is broken...as is mine and everyone else on here. May we all give ourselves the grace we need to heal. sending you love, Nancy:)

there is always light, fashionlover. It takes healing to see it...please be gentle with yourself...I am sorry for your loss..I know birthdays are rough. sending you love..hug