Angela smith

Female

Vista, CA

United States

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About my Loss:
After a month long battle at the hospital, my 89 year old mother passed away 2 days ago in ICU. I was not ready to let her go and tried everything possible to save her. She came in with a Pneumonia and developed a mersa infection, then respiratory failure and CHF with out of control edema. So traumatized that she couldn't communicate to us her wishes as she went into pulmonary edema and was intubated from there it was sheer torture for my mother between suctions, multiple meds for pain and vitals, and increasing health issues then finally a trach and food tube which literally ended her life. I am so lost and heartbroken without her, finding difficulty coping.

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  • Leila

    Thank you for your kind note, Angela. I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet mother. My feelings are so much like yours. My mom was 86 when she passed from brain cancer 4 months ago. I still have nightmares of my mother's suffering during her last weeks. I still cry everyday. I wonder every day if I did the right things for her after she could no longer communicate her wishes. Sometimes I feel I did everything wrong and wonder if there was anything else I could have done to save her. I'm so angry with the hospice facility she was in during her final days that I left them horrible reviews on every online site I could find. They provided the worst care I've ever seen and I wish I never let the hospital transfer her there. I want my mom back so badly. My world has a huge empty spot without her.
    Sending hugs and prayers to you!
    Nancy

    Aug 28, 2015

  • Bobbi Hornsby

    I'm so sorry I know the pain I lost my mom little over two months ago and I don't know how to get thru this either.she add 74 I took her home with hospice care for three weeks one day..broke my heart.hang in their

    Sep 25, 2015

  • Mary Campbell

    Dear Angela, I can certainly relate to your feelings. When I go to her house, I have such bittersweet feelings.  The pain and sadness of her not being there is heartbreaking, yet when I think about selling her home, it makes me even sadder that she is gone forever. 

    Oct 6, 2015