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Permalink Reply by Heather Day on July 27, 2011 at 1:14pm

What is really getting me lately is the anxiety.  I have been waking up with it and it doesn't go away some days.  This happened the first few days after everything happened, but then went away, so I'm really not sure how to deal with it.  I have ativan and I see a therapist, so I'm managing it best I can, and I know it's normal, but so uncomfortable.  Some days it takes everything I have just to get up and take care of my kids.  I have no siblings and my parents are older with their own issues/health problems, so I don't have family support.  His brother and family live in Northern CA which isn't too far, but not close enough.  I have good friends that I am very thankful for, but I just want Corey.  He and our boys were everything to me, and he was just taken from us.  The pain is so bad I just do know how to handle it sometimes.  Other days, I'm stronger, but it always comes back.  I know it will lessen with time, but it is just so hard.  I don't sleep well obviously, and I didn't really before either, so I'm always tired.  My appetite is up and down most of the time.  I am doing the best I can to take care of myself and my boys, but sometimes I just want to get under the covers and not come out. 

Permalink Reply by Kali Grainger on September 8, 2012 at 8:45pm

Heather,

I know how you feel because I feel the exact same way... My fiance was killed in a work accident 2 1/2 months ago and left behind myself and our now almost 7 month old daughter...