It is still hard after 11 years since my grandpa passed away. I finally came to a peace and accepting place about his death just this year while my grandma was dying from cancer. My heart aches for both of them but more for her right now. I am still at peace about loosing him even though I am going through the grieving process again. My only fear is of going back to a deep dark place of major depression that I had after his death. I slept the days away and had an emotional melt down at my job so I quit it by walking out one day that I just couldn't handle it anymore. Loss of a loved one is hard and so is life in general but after 11 years I am at a place where I can still live and not just quit on my own life even thought recently like today has been really rough. I had to leave work today after only being there an hour because I was so terribly broken up. This is the first time I have had to do this since she passed a month ago. I truly thought I wouldn't have to use my FMLA for this but that is just not the case! Peace and blessings to all!