I hope to have other discussions here and for those that join feel free to create your own discussion topics. But since this is just getting started I will talk about my own experiences as of right now.

If anyone has lost their only sibling, how are you coping with being the only one left? Do you feel like you have to take on their responsibilities in the family now? I feel like more of my family come to me for things, obviously. Also, I have a lot of older family members and now I help them and it's sometimes to much because I'm still grieving and then I have to take the time to help them or try to hang out with them. It's not the worse thing to hang out with them, but it's the same as doing it when I didn't have this mental/emotional pain 24/7.  It''s also a bit overwhelming as I used to share this helping my sister.

I could call or text her and tell her to help our Mom or aunt with something and she'd do the same with me. Now it's just me. And being the 'younger generation' in my family, I"m also the tech guru now. I know a lot about that kind of stuff, not as much as her, but it still feels overwhelming to have to be the one to fix that kind of stuff and not have her do it or go to her and get help. Now it's almost this pressure to know how to fix everything.

I don't know. I hate my life so much. I still can't believe she is gone. I simply cannot believe she is not here. I feel like this is a nightmare I can't wake up from. I can't believe I'm living this right now.