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Permalink Reply by anna l. on May 17, 2012 at 8:31pm

Terrance Im very sorry you had need to find this site but Im glad you did.  There are so many people here who are amazing listeners and can offer words that really touch in a way only others who have lived through these losses can.  It is my experience that this journey of learning to live without someone we love has its ups and downs so you are not alone in that.  My latest spiral down was when I found one of my husbands ball caps behind a dresser.  It still held some of his scent.  I buried my head in that hat and sobbed and sobbed.  I think the ups happen more often and the downs are not as deep as they were a year ago but I dont expect them to stop happening. 

 

Permalink Reply by Terrance Smops on May 17, 2012 at 10:36pm

Thanks Ann.

I remember my wife swiping my hats when we first met because she liked my smell. I thought it was strange at the time. Sweet memories.

I am glad to find this place. I won't have to feel so alone.

Permalink Reply by Terrance Smops on May 18, 2012 at 8:37pm

Well I made it to the zoo today. Then out to eat after. That is when I cried. I think that is when I miss her most.

Permalink Reply by anna l. on May 18, 2012 at 10:37pm

Glad you did something fun today.  I bought soil so I can rework the garden and rose beds.  I have been finding putting my hands in earth is what grounds me and gives me a feeling of being at peace with my new life.  Here we go, finding our way.  Good for us!!