I don't know how to go on.....He was my baby...

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About my  Loss:
Just lost my son Justin on 7.26.2014. He was 23 yrs old.  We went to celebrate his sister's 21st birthday. When I went to wake him up he was dead. Had been dead over 8 hours. Black was coming out of his nose and mouth. I know he used alcohol and drugs. I pray that he didn't suffer. I feel like a failure. I should have checked on him earlier. I should have protected him. I miss him terribly and don't know how I am going to live.

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Permalink Reply by Michelle H on September 4, 2014 at 2:52pm
Margaret, I'm so terribly sorry to hear of your recent loss of your son. It is an absolutely devastating thing to go through. All I can say is utilize this site to express your feelings and you will get lots of support. From a mom who knows. Michelle
Permalink Reply by Vasanthi S on September 4, 2014 at 3:02pm

Margaret,

Extremely sorry for this painful event . I just want you to know that you are in my prayers and will be keeping you in my heart with prayers. It is the most painful to go through. Please do share your thoughts and feelings. I lost my son in 2011 and it was such a nightmare of pain. Here I find actual understanding and support and even today when I am at rock bottom i draw strength from my friends here.

Vasanthi

Permalink Reply by Connie K on September 4, 2014 at 6:01pm

Dear Margaret,

I am so sorry for your loss and what you had to go through. I lost my 17 year old son, 19 months ago in a car accident. I feel the same way about the fact that I should have protected him and failed. We all have those regrets and that guilt can be overwhelming. But you have to remember that even if we could go back in time and try to change things, there is no guarantee we could. Sometimes things happen because of choices others make and you simply can not change that. Please be gentle on yourself.  I'm sure you are a wonderful mother and protected him as much as you could have. It is such a shock and so devastating but we are all here for you on this site. You just have to take it a day at a time. I'll keep you in my heart and prayers.   Connie

Permalink Reply by Vicki on September 18, 2014 at 12:36pm

Hi Margaret.  I am so sorry for your loss.  I lost my beautiful 25 year old son to a drug overdose August 23rd of this year.  I didn't find him, for which I am thankful, as he had his own apartment he had just moved into.  That morning before I knew he was gone, I was making soup for our supper; he was going to eat with me.  I can't believe that my son left this world and I didn't feel anything.  It seems like I should have known somehow that something was wrong.  I love him so much and miss him so much.  My life is over and yet it goes on.  I have no words of comfort for anyone. 

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