Grieving brings a void inside of us that can only ever be filled by that one special person we grieve for...and when they are no longer with us...and can no longer fill this void...we live in this void to try to fill it as best we can...with anything...as no-one can ever fill it but the one we miss...and another loss has come to me now...another Mom has passed away just like my own Mum...and through this loss I relive the loss again of my own dear Mum...yet in this passing although it brings the weight of it to bear upon me...it also confirms the love we have for those who not only walked beside us, and our loved ones, for most of our lives but who also held us in their arms and hearts as well.

I grieve the loss of my dear Mum (28.08.2013)....

.......but my soul mate's Mom (23-02-14)...heaven has two more Angels...xx

Grief is messy...it cannot be fitted into a box of Denial...Anger...Bargaining....Depression and Acceptance...as there is no prescribed path...we can only be our own guide in our path of our grieving...and when you get to that 'mess age'...when you feel everything is falling apart and in your adulthood you return to your childhood...look for the message this brings to you...find the meaning of what this is telling you.

'You bleed just to know you're alive'....

Iris...Goo Goo Dolls...City of Angels...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7fa5rC6cPWc

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am