hello everyone, my name is helen and I recently lost my partner of 30 years this july 2017 to cervical cancer shes was only 51 years old. ever since her passing life has been pure hell for me. I feel like I am on emotional roller coaster and I  cant get off of it either. to be honest its the  hardest thing I have gone through.  and what makes it so hard  I just have a few friends and no family in the area for support.