Is anyone else going through this? My lover and best friend died last month from brain cancer. We had dated when we were younger, me 19 and he was 22. I broke up with him because I was young and stupid. We went our separate ways and along the way married other people. We reconnected 4 years ago and instantly felt that spark. One year into our relationship, he was diagnosed with brain cancer. He fought so hard. We would text every day and see each other when we could. We were both so happy that we found each other again after 25 years apart. His wife found a text from me in May, 2012 and he shut me out of his life. I last spoke to him in October and his last words to me were "I love you too". He died December 19.

I had to stay away from the funeral because of his wife. I have had to grieve alone or with the few people who knew about us. I am married too so I can't cry at home. I feel like I lost a part of me and I also feel guilty, that I have no right to grieve because I wasn't his wife. I loved him with all my heart and miss him every day.

Is anyone else in a situation like this?