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Permalink Reply by Stephanie on September 1, 2011 at 11:12am

Susie, 

 

My heart breaks for you reading this. You should never feel like you can't cry, you lost one of the most important people in the world to you, of course you are going to cry, maybe even scream and wail. No one can tell you how you are going to go through your grief. I have no idea what it would be like to lose a twin sister, my sister was 2 years younger then me, but I still feel like I lost a part of myself. When I went back home, I sat on the bed that my sister had passed away in suddenly and it was the hardest thing I ever had to do. Just touching her things and knowing that she would never be there in that space again was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Susie, I wish you peace and love, and I also wish you hope. Hope that the stabbing pain at your heart will dull into an ache and that your memories of your sister bring a smile to your face. 

 

*hugs* 

Steph

Permalink Reply by Delores Sue Crowson on September 1, 2011 at 1:07pm

     Steph, Thanks so much for answering my call for help.,It,s been so hard, I was able to finally change her sheets, thought I had been doing good until I folded them in the laundry room, Lost it all over again.I fel the same way about her room,My hubby say's that it's our home, our room. Needless to say I do not see it that way.She came to me to die, she counted on me to help her through, And I did everything I could to keep all the promises I made.

  I am so mad at the doctors for leading us to believe there was hope, They continued to give her one treatment after another, alway's saying " There are new treatments out there ",She never knew she had cancer, let alone stage 4,I just cannot understand why they dangle the rope of hope to ppl in her stage of cancer,It had already spread.

   I miss her so bad, and each day brings more peace, It is all so new yet, I find myself thinking that she is just away for a while, When I know she will never come back, I hold her things and cry, I don't know when I will be able to let her things go,I have been told by Hospice that I am going thru a normal stage og grieving, I have forgotten what normal is, God Bless you for answering,Hugs Susie