I am happy I found this group.My sister Adele passed away in February of this year.She had lung cancer.She was not a smoker and lived a healthy life.If anyone should live to 100 it should have been her.Unfortunately it turned out to be a mutation in her genes. We did not grow up close to each other due to circumstances beyond our control.Just when we started getting close again she got the news she was dying,She was my only sister and older than me.She held my hand when  we were little and always wanted to protect me.I miss her a lot.Some days are better than others but I still cry a lot and get mad I cannot express my feelings openly.I have three brothers but dont know what to say to them.She was the only one who remembers parts o f my childhood because i am only two years younger than her.Before she died dhe told me things about my childhood only she would know.Lost my mom  over thirty yeats ago.but this is worse on so many levels.She was my contemporary.I hate she is gone.