As a child I saw my mother in bed for 17 years and after a prolonged illness she passed away in 2002. My father has been my rock solid support system and has been the pillar of strength for me emotionally and socially. Being a single guy, no family no children but yes a loving sister and a nephew. I lost my father less than a month back and he passed away in his sleep. I don't live with him but I'm always with him. The sense of grief and bereavement is immense. I don't have words to describe how I feel. It actually feels that the unconditional love in life is missing, there is a void that no other human being can fill and you wonder when you will reunite with them, physically. I believe in spirits but I wonder if they exist. I bekiev in rebirth but I wonder if we will all reunite.
I cannot comprehend this circle of life and it may take me this lifetime to come to the harsh reality of life - death.
At a certain level, it feels nice to reach out to a support grinder group who is going thru the same emotion and can empathize on life's emptiness.
I don't know what to write but I would love to hear whether I will ever come to terms with the loss of both my parents, the touch missing on my shoulder telling me all is ok and that I am no one's son anymore!