Hello everyone.  I am new to this community. 

In May of 2018, I lost my Dad after a very brief illness.  I loved my Dad but we were not real close.  18 months later in November of 2019, I lost my Mom.  She and I were very close.  She even lived with us after Dad passed away.  I had a half brother who I did not see more than 10 times my whole life who passed away in 2000, so I am really an only child.  I so miss my Momma very much.  She was my rock.  Even if I did not see her every day as an adult, we talked on the phone every single day.  Not a day went by where I did not talk to her at least once in a day.  My body hurts so bad missing her hugs.  I know these feelings will get better but it is just so hard right now.  It has only been 8 months but I still get mad at myself for still feeling this way.