My mom died on February 13th 2012, of uterine cancer. 

Today was her birthday.  She would have been 59. 

So many things have happened in the last month that I would have told her. I got a new job and left my old one, I bought my first car, my boyfriend and I broke up...

I miss her help through major transitions. I miss her voice on the phone. It's bizarre, but I kind of wish I had my mom to help me mourn the loss of my mom. I don't know how to experience major loss without her there to console me. 

My 24th birthday was a few weeks after she passed away. 

I feel like I lost a piece of myself and that I'll never full be whole again.

I look forward to the day when I adjust to a new normal