I lost my dad last year in September and every since then my life just spins constantly out of control. I feel like I'm constantly pushed to be "over it" or to have a lot together. I feel like no one truly understands that since I was only 14 when my dad died I totally ran from grieving. Now it's catching up to me and I feel totally and completely overwhelmed with lively issues and with grieving. Sometimes my life is just so go go go my head is spinning and overwhelmed. In these moments I just feel like if I could have two seconds to forget everything my mind be completely cleared. I feel like handling this greif as a teenager is too much for my brain at times.