I have been reading your posts and I understand the pain of losing your better half.

I lost my husband 6 years ago. He was my world, my everything.

we have a son. I love him to pieces. No one can't touch one hair of his head, I love him so much...

But often I have wished, I would have been free to reconstruct my life from scratch. Put all those good and bad memories in a box and hide it under my bed to restart a new life.

I love him but he is a walking memory of my lost husband. he looks so much like him, smile and laugh the same way. when he is asking questions about his dad, it is like a knife stabbing my body.

And you can not even gasp the pain that you feel as a mum when your son is full of sorrow because he is missing his dad, how you get angry against life for this never ending pain that yourself and your child have to go through.

No girls! I must disagree with you and let you know :

You have been lucky to have the freedom to rebuild fully your life. the scar will remind for ever, there is no doubt that your lost changed you for ever, but you have the change to freely move on.

Please embrace this chance for all the women that did have it and have to fight everyday for their kids on their own.

All my love,

N