My sons birthday is Thursday and all I do is cry
I have never not been with him on his birthday
He will be 20. I am loosing my mind he is all I think of
So bad I want to go to these people house that done this
I am not. A bad person but while I hurt and don't have 
Have my son for his birthday . They have there daughters
And are talking bout there. Dad chasing my son . I
This is killing me . I want to get my son something
I may take flowers to the tree. I don't know . He is 
In a box on my shelf . I have wanted to open it but 
The family won't let me . I just want to put him back together
That's all I want him back he needs to come home now