Trying to find myself again

My dad passed away suddenly on Halloween. In the week that followed I was strong so that my mom and little brother could fall apart. When a decision had to be made, they came to me. After the worst week of my life was over I went back to school. But now, I'm not back. I tried but I had breakdown after breakdown and had to take a leave of absence. I feel like I don't know who I am without my dad here. I'm trying but I can't. I feel like I'm unraveling and I can't get it all back together. Does anyone else feel like this? How do you get through it? How does it get easier? 

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Permalink Reply by Kathy R. on June 13, 2016 at 11:41am

Hi Jillian, 

I've been reading through all these posts and yours is one that I can relate to.  My dad also passed away unexpectedly. I also had to be the rock for my mom who depended completely on him.  I also have to take care of my own family on my own, so a lot of responsibility falls on my shoulders.  I have also had a few break downs but have to keep pushing forward because the one thing I keep thinking is, my dad would want me to be strong.  He always, always had faith in me.  I miss him so much it hurts sometimes to breathe.  But I just wanted to reach out to you and tell you that you are not alone and that I understand. Sending you an online hug. ((((Jillisn))))   Kathy

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