Ok, so it has been almost 2 years now since my best friend and father of my daughter passed away. I really never took the time to actually grieve because of trying to raise my daughter by myself. He wasn't the best guy around, and the majority of people who found out he passed away replied to me as "You are better off". I always just politely smiled, and when I got home, I would think to myself, how could someone have the nerve to say that to me. This was coming from close friends, relatives, and even my obstetricain. (She was an old classmate of mine, so I knew her). I wasn't able to attend the 1 day funeral because I had a C-section the day after he died. I have never discussed his death with anyone because simply, nobody wants to hear about it. I sit and cry to myself just about every night. Not just for the fact that he isn't here, but for the fact that my daughter will never have a father. I don't have any idea of how to deal with that. I cry when I see dads on tv with their little girls. It is to the point where the slightest thing makes me cry, and I am getting tired of crying. I just don't know where or who to turn to.