I don't even know if this is the right place to be putting this on here but here goes. My name is Louie and I'm 28 years old. I have a wonderful wife, and a 4 year old daughter. I don't have anyone to talk to who understands what I'm going thru so I found this. I lost my mom in a vehicle accident on July 3, 2014. I was at work in St. Louis mo, and I received a phone call from the highway patrol asking me for my identity. ( If they were talking to Louie). After confirming everything they wanted to know my location so, being the Highway patrol I told them where I was. They wouldn't give me any information over the phone. So I immediatly called everyone I could think of to make sure things were fine. My mom did not answer. An hour and 15 minutes of waiting it was 4:30 pm, 2 HP officers pulled into my workplace and I made my way over to them. When I got to them both officers took their hats off and again asked me if I was Louie. And then asked me if I was the son of Debbie. I knew right at that moment something was wrong. They told me that they were sorry to tell me my mom had been killed in a car accident. This happened at 8:00 AM. It was now 4:30 PM. Why was I the only person they could contact? After I tried getting my bearings back together I realized that I had to call my dad back to tell him what was going on because I was the first and only person in my entire family that knew what happened. That was the hardest thing I have ever had to do to someone. I was 4 hours from where the accident happened. My dad was 12 minutes from where it happened. She was the only vehicle involved. I just don't understand I guess. Sorry for the long post I just don't have anyone to talk to that has lost a parent. I feel I am still too young for this. And it's starting to really get to me trying to explain to my daughter why grandma Debbie isn't coming back. Its getting kinda close to the 1 year mark and I honestly don't think this has gotten any easier. People say it does but I don't know. I just really miss my mom