my grandma moved from ohio to be with my mom when she announced pregnancy. she was only supppsed to stay and babysit me until i went to school. she ended up staying my whole life. my mom worked, my gram stayed with me. the woman raised me. she was my mom, my mom was my sister. my mom lost her job due to an unknown illness & is now disabled. she is mentally ill on top of it all. friday my mom went crazy. my gram held my hand as she always did and said "it's just me and you baby."

saturday night my gram went to the er with a side pain. she died sunday at 4:03 PM. saturday night i had sat in her room and talked til i had to leave. she kissed me, i hugged her and we exchanged i love yous. she told me to drive safe, i said i'd see her wednesday since i work 10 hour days.

she was fine as far as anyone could see. but she had severe kidnry failure, pnemonia, and had passee a gallbladder stone.

i now am left alone with my crazy mom. she has zero income. my gram paid rent, my best friend and i paid utlities. now we have to quickly find somewhere to move thats cheap and a three bedroom. i also have to make sure my mom wont kill herself. 

i'm so stressed i feel that i'm not having time to properly grieve the loss of my mom (gram) and best friend. its only been 5 days and i havent cried at all today.

i'm just scared i will be homeless