I lost my only son , Naveen ( Kittu ) in a tragic accident on 6th March 2013. He was out walking in the evening with his earphones on and was crossing an unmanned railway track crossing in Ernakulam, Kerala , India when this happened. He did not see the second train coming from the other direction & his earphones prevented him from hearing others shouting out behind him.
Now me & my husband do not know how to go forward without our Kittu. He was so much a part of our lives for the last 22 years.
He was mature beyond his years and used to help me out when I was tensed. Now he is no more and life feels meaningless to us.
He was a sweet,mature boy who was loved by his friends, relatives & teachers. He had just graduated with distinction as an engineer and was waiting to get his MS admission in the USA. Now his admission to three top universities in USA has come & we are without him- wondering what could have been.
Till March 5th, we were a happy family and now in a flash our lives have changed and our world has become topsy turvy.
Coping with this loss has been very difficult .I have not been able to sleep properly & his memories keep coming back to haunt me.
I believed in astrology which predicted a great career for him & us. This was all true till that night of March 6th. Now I have lost faith. Even now none of the astrologers we consulted can find why this happened.
Kittu - I still believe that a miracle ( just like your unexplainable , sudden separation from us ) will bring you back & this hope is what is taking me forward. I see God in front of me now & he is guiding me to your coming back. I am keeping all your things ready for your return.
We have adopted two kittens who have made life a little bit more bearable. One of them, Neelu is very sensitive & keeps coming to me when I cry & gives me comfort.
Me & my husband keep wondering why we are being punished like this, when we have not done any harm to anybody. I do not understand why people who have done no harm to others have to suffer.
I hope parents do not have to suffer loss of their children , like me.
