I've been having many fainting spells. I can't cook as I leave the oven on and collapse and forget it's still on. This morning I fainted and cracked my pinky toe ( and slammed my head too). I decided to re-set the toe myself to avoid going to the hospital.

Hurt like hell and I'm still in pain. I made arrangements with my brother that if he calls me and I don't respond within 48 hours that I may be injured , unconscious or worse - dead. That he may need to call an ambulance just as a precaution.

I also leave my door unlocked this way anyone can gain entry in an emergency .

I can't believe how much my life has changed . Alone and facing each day in fear and terror.

I just want my old life back. I want my wife back. I want to hold her and have those silly conversations that go nowhere.

The loneliness and guilt is much much more crueler than death.

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Let me know how you are doing. 

It is hard. I know: I don't have anybody at all - just my 2 dogs.

Hi richard, that's really scary, this is probably a stupid question but can you not get some sort of panick button? Shirls brother has epilepsy and he has a button that contacts emergency if he falls or collapses, he doesn't even have to press it, it somehow senses when it happens. Of course here it is provided on nhs,don't know if you have any thing similar but there must be some help. It's so dangerous for you. Thinking of you jackie x

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