Life is so hard without my mom, my best friend

My beautiful & amazing mom passed away this past August, one month after her diagnosis of pancreatic cancer. The last month of her life was horrific, we saw my mom deteriorate slowly, and it was just so diffucult to watch her go through this. It was so sudden, my mom was full of life, she was the rock that held my family together. My dad, my brothers and I are grieving in our own way. I cry every day, knowing I will never her in person, cooking the delicious meals she always prepared for us. I never got the chance to appologize to my mom for being a jerk to her at times, this I regret so much. I have very few friends but I just can't seem to connect with them now, all I think of is my mom and where she is? I love my mom so much and I miss her everyday. Human beings are able to travel out of this world, but cancer is an impossibility of a cure. Its just so messed up!

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Permalink Reply by Jeanette on October 22, 2015 at 7:40pm
Sorry to hear you lost both your parents. As kids we think our parents will be around forever, then we grow older and reality takes its toll. Life, huh? I hope you find yourself well, these things happen and we think we're alone, but it brings a sense of calmness knowing theres people that understand exactly what we're going through.
Permalink Reply by Allee on October 26, 2015 at 8:58pm
I'm sorry for your loss. I also lost my mom this August due to an illness. You feel very lost and don't know where to turn. Please know that you are not alone!
Permalink Reply by Jeanette on October 31, 2015 at 3:16am
Thank you Allee, my condolences to you.
Permalink Reply by Dennis C. on October 30, 2015 at 6:37am
Jeanette

I find that what helps me get through is my HOPE for better times in the future. I rely extensively on the Bible as it promises a time when NO ONE WILL BE SICK, and when we will all be REUNITED with our dear loved ones who we have lost in death.

Can you imagine being reunited with your mom? How happy would you be at that very moment?

I know that these promises in the Bible don't take our pain away today. It does give us hope though. And that hope can give us something to look forward to, which helps get us through the day.
Permalink Reply by Jeanette on October 31, 2015 at 3:15am
Dennis, thank you for reminding me that someday I will be with my mom again. I feel so empty that I forget and just withdraw from things. I want to see her when its time, just like she saw her mother come for her, this I know because my mom told me right before she left❤
Permalink Reply by Jeanette on November 4, 2015 at 10:05am
Janette, you said exactly what I have been dreading, the holidays I dont want to celebrate at all. My mom handled everything from decorating to cooking. Its not that I cant do it, I dont want to. It hurts knowing my mom wont be around ever again. My familys leaving out of the country for xmas, I dont know wht the heck Im going to do without them, makes me sad thinking of it.

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