I lost my brother in april. He had a bad life and went through so many heartaches. Then to top it off, he gets shot to death when he was only 17 with a baby on the way. My niece is now 3 weeks. There is so much I wish I wouldve said and done for him. I wish I had a chance to make it up to him the fact that I wasnt always  the perfect sister. If God had any mercy, he would just kill me so I can be with my brother and we can put this all behind us. I dont know how I'm supposed to live the rest of my life without him. I wish it couldve been me instead of him. He had so much more to live for