I just want to wait for the night to come to take my sleeping pill and not to think about the kind of life I am having without my father and my brother.  My father die from an aneurism a year and a half ago and my brother die from cerebral infarction on July 19.  I am wondering what have I done in life to deserve this kind of pain; my brother was only 55 years old, gone too soon after three months of pain and suffering due to a medical negligence on sinus infection treatment.  Please someone tell me how to deal with this pain.