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Permalink Reply by Piper Ball on March 26, 2013 at 9:48am

I don't know if I am doing this right. It's my first time, but I am getting despirate. My son was seperated in September 2012. Because the two girls were not biologically his, he was not able to get visitiation. So, I lost my two granddaughters. On October 2012, my nephew's father was found in his apartment. Died due to drug overdose. In November, I lost my sister, best friend, other half, unexpectedly, in February, Momma passed after a long illness. If I didn't have a job, I would never get out of bed. I would lay in my own squaller until the house fell in on me or my heart stopped beating. Even though I have two other sisters, a father, a husband, children, nieces, nephews, etc... I feel utterly alone. I don't like the person I have become. I don't know how to get out of it either. I have NO ONE, it seems, to talk to. We are all grieving different people. I haven't been able to contact my brother-in-law since January. I don't know wat to do, I don't know where to turn. I just want to find a hole, crawl in it, and stay there til its all over. I know that I can't keep going on like this. Somethings gotta give. I don't even know if I have started grieving yet. I need help. I know that. I cannot join the grief support groups in my area. Either one of my family members are part of the group, or they know my family. Things that I feel I need to get off of my chest, I can't. I don't want people gossiping about my family or me. What is that first step? Where do I go? What do I do? If I could just get started. But how? I have had offers from alot of people to call them if I need to talk, but it isn't long before the eyes glaze over. The excusses come and they have to go. It's a horrible position to put someone in. To listen to someone talk about a very painful happening. But is is just as horrible, when you are that person, talking about the pain, and the person you are talking to wants nothing more that to come up with a reason to get out of the conversation. Any advise?

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Permalink Reply by dream moon JO B on April 9, 2013 at 4:12pm

a lot of us dnt hav grief suport wear we live coachlouse ths website is the only help we hav

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