6 Weeks ago i lost my husband of 19 years,  He was my best friend,  my rock,  and he looked after the house,  the cooking,  the cleaning and everything.  We had lots of wonderful friends and i had the best husband around.  Then cancer came and took everything from us.  Now im left behind trying to cope with our kids,  our house and everything. most of those friends seem to be gone.  no one has taken the timeto ask how i am this easter. Everyone seems to expect me to just cope.  i feel like  im drowning,  and theres no lifelines,  no hope for the future,  just more going without.

i dont know how to get any help,  any support,  i dont know if theres anything available.  my requests for help dealing with the cancer came back as there is nothing.  My doctor was one of our friends,  but she seems really stressed by his death,  and doesnt seem to want to talk to me.  

I miss touch,  i dont get any anymore,  from anyone,  

And i feel like all im doing is whining about how bad things are,  so noone includes me in anything fun any more.

Any suggestions on how to make all this work?