I can't sleep, i can't eat, all I think about is why..... i used to pray to god to protect my family.. but all i do is ask him why.

 

my brother died 2/28/12 he lived with me and my sister, i have three kids well ...2 now and my sister had 1 daughter, i have a son 29 and a daughter 18 i had another son  24 ...he was shot and killed 3/8/12 all I do is cry..... it hurts so bad and I don't know what to do ..... i found this site so here i am

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Hi Cynthia,

I am deeply sorry for the loss of both your brother and your son. It is horrible how bad things still sometimes seem to happen to good people. I thank you for being brave and sharing your story; it means a lot that you are reaching out. Even just talking about what you are feeling will help you sort through your thoughts, and is so much better than holding it all in.

 I know that your pain is still fresh, and so you may find it impossible to ask any other questions than, "why did this have to happen to them- and to me". It is hard to even consider, but your pain will one day be easier to live with. It will not go away, and you will not forget. But with time, I hope that you will find yourself asking instead "why they were in my life", "what they did for me", "what I learned from their experiences", "how they changed my life".

In this way, they have never really left. They live inside your heart and soul, and their positive and uplifting memories will help you forever.

Don't ever feel alone in this -  we are here for you to talk to, scream to, cry to, whatever you need to do <3

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