4 MONTHS TODAY, WITHOUT ACCEPTANCE

4 months today, that I no longer hear his voice, or see him. 4 months, that my dreams and hopes died.  4 months, of loneliness and depression. 4 months today, that my loved husband past away. I can say that it has not gotten easier. I think it is more hard as months are passing by. I am getting hit with reality that months are passing by and he is not coming back home. My son is growing and his dad is not here with him to watch him to all the silly things he is doing and share them with me. I continue to cry on a every day basis. Days are longer and more lonely. It hurts so much to know that he is not here with us. People around me seem to be moving on and doing their own things, while I am still here going through this dark tunnel that I do not know where to go? or what to do?  or when will I reach the end? I do not know how to be without him? Counting the days until we meet again!

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Permalink Reply by anna l. on August 28, 2011 at 3:31pm

Amanda boy do I understand.  I posted last week about feeling exactly this way.  It is not getting easier, it is getting harder because as time goes on the fact my husband and yours is really gone and not coming back sinks in a little more and that reality is a constant stabbing pain.  Noone prepares us with the truth that it gets worse.  hugs of friendship, and this unkind bond we share.

 

Permalink Reply by Debra S. Coughlin on September 24, 2011 at 5:36am
Hi Amanda, I'm so sorry for your loss. I can totally relate to everything you said, I lost my soulmate of 15yrs. 2 months ago.  I wish it could be some comfort to know someone else is going through the same feelings but I know it doesn't always work that way. I want to thank you for sharing your feelings, somehow I feel a little less lonely after reading your post.  I hope the pain eases a little for both of us, also know that you are loved even though you may not feel it right now.  Hang in there Amanda... Lots of prayers,  Debbie "PhillyPhan"              
Permalink Reply by adriana gonzalez on August 28, 2011 at 9:38pm

is been 2 months for me now, i eel everything youre feeling..... i keep asking myself why n never get an answer :( like u to me it seems like it gets harder .... my kids needed their dad n now hes gone forever... it hurts seeing other people go on because we cant do the same... i dont know what to tell u amanda i wish i could make u feel better but i cant even do that for myself.. hang in there n be strong thats all we have

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