Hey guys. I've been having a really bad day missing my mom. It's not even been a month yet and each day is a tougher obstacle to overcome. I lost her to lung cancer 5/20/15, I'm 27, my father died 2 years ago as well so now my wife and I have custody of my 2 younger brothers. We just built bedrooms for them downstairs. I have this empty pit in my lower chest/upper stomach that seems to come and go as it pleases. Today it's been pretty consistent. I left work early to come home and sleep, no not the best idea but my body needed it. My mind consistently races and my heart consistently hurts. What do you guys do when you feel like this? I do my best to stay active but it's hard to hold myself together. I do, don't get me wrong but it's hard. I feel like I'm failing as a husband, father, brother and a son. Tonight for example my 6 year old and I went out for a nice scooter ride (about an hour) and I still found myself tearing up just trying to enjoy my boy. I've had my fair share of pain, never to this extent. I'm just lost/broken. I guess trying to find a way that will get me through the day. Thanks for reading and thanks in advance for input

Anthony

Tags: Cancer, broken heart, death, grief, hospice, lonely, lost, lung cancer, mom, mother

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