I lost my oldest son march 14,2013 and it so hard. I miss his loving smile and big bear hugs. his brother does not want to talk about it. So I try not mentioning it while talking to him unless he brings it up. I want the pain to go away now. I know it willnever go completely. I miss him so very much.

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Barbara, I lost my beloved daughter Feb.20, 2013 and, yes, it feels like half of my heart is gone.  She and I were sooo close.  I only had two daughters, and they were my iife.  I lost my husband 5 years ago and she was my support and now she is gone.  I can surely relate to how you feel and would love to chat with you, maybe on the phone if you would like.  The only family I have left now is my other daughter and she will not talk about her sister with me at all.

 

I lost my 38 y/o son June 10th and it is the hardest thing. I know I will have to learn to live with this pain. My throat has a lump in it and my heart hurts and feels like pieces are missing. I have 2 other daughters who hate me and called to say that I was the worse mom ever. These are adults 35 and 24. They state that my son hated me too. Thank God he and I had talked recently about his favorite times while growing up. I might have believed them. Not only did I lose my son, but my other children as well. His death had destroyed even my extended family. I can't work, I've lost a job and was sent home from another. I have no money and soon will be in danger of losing my house and shut off of utilities. I don't care. I've lost 15 ibs and got a kidney stones and it's only been a month since his death. I hate to leave the house and cry when I see people having fun. did I mention I am a medic who knows better, but it is just too much effort to heal myself. I don't want to kill myself, but I also don't want to exist. I am glad he died versus being a paraplegic and I do realize that his life was lived by his choices, but God decides our end. I praise the Lord that he was taken quickly...I just miss him and am still horrified that he is gone.

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