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Permalink Reply by Lara on September 24, 2012 at 5:11pm

Dear joni,

my mum passed away suddenly on August 6th, 2012. I found her dead in her bed.

I have no family left, now, and no job, almost no money - I'm 25, I was a full-time student.
I can understand what you're going through, I can't accept it either. Even if if rationally I know she won't be back, a part of me keeps hoping that one day she'll come waking me up again, angry because I overslept. 

But I know it won't be happening.

I miss her so damn much.

Hugs.

Permalink Reply by James D on October 17, 2012 at 11:56am

Lara, I know your pain well. I'm 27 and have essentially been looking for work for no avail. 

And through it all, my mom was there fore me. And now she's not. She passed in September and it seems as if the pain will never go away. (I'm told it does get easier though.) 

It's made me think of how fleeting the mortal coil is, and how we need to cherish moments with loved ones, good and bad. And also, to accept help whenever you really need it. Mom didn't, and we all get to suffer for it. 

I miss my mom so much. But all we can do is press on. 

Permalink Reply by Marie Carr on September 24, 2012 at 6:26pm

Hi I believe that they are still with up.  I lost my mum on 10th August, 2010 and then my dad, on 10th April, nine months later.

 

I know they are with me, that is why I am now ok, well sort of.  I wish I could see them as before, but I have seen them in my dreams. Very realistic dreams.  I am able to cope. Knowing they are still with me and cn hear me.  Just in a different way.  We will see them again one day, I just Know.  Just believe, I promise they are still with us x

 

 

Permalink Reply by joni miller on September 25, 2012 at 10:23am

Marie

Thanks for the positive thoughts.  It is hard to see  things clearly through grief.  It means alot to speak to people who have or are currently going through the same things.  I just always had such a close relationship with my mom  and we had conversations about how she would  be with me and send  me a "message" to let me know she is ok. I havent felt anything and I find it scary. I am worried  about my mom and whether she is ok and at peace.  I feel unsettled right now.   thanks you for the kind words again, and I am very sorry for your loss as well.

Joni

Permalink Reply by joni miller on September 25, 2012 at 6:15pm

Kathleen

Thanks for sharing your stories , they are comforting, and I do believe that you have your sign.   my sister told me she was gardening and their was a single butterfly was coming back to her the whole time.  I hope  I get that. I think all sorts of silly things. For instance my mom and I were from Chicago, however she had been living with me in a suburb of Cleveland for the past ten years,   She got sick and passed away in Cleveland , I subsequently brought her "home" for her service and  now im back again.  I have been thinking in the physical sense that she  cant find me or she is in her hometown and that is in fact why I am not having any signs.  I know this is unreasonable on many levels, but that is what my grief stricken mind is thinking.     

Thanks for sharing.

Joni

Permalink Reply by Dr S Gh on October 17, 2012 at 6:22am

Hi Joni

I really identify with how ur feeling. i lost my mum suddenly nearly 4 weeks ago. She died at home and the exoerince was very traumatic for me and my family. I lived with mum and dad as i'm disbaled with an illness and they helped look after me. I can't face a life without her. Every minute of every day something reminds me of her. Life has no joy or meaning without her. I wish i could give u a hug, tho i know from experince that nothing takes the pain away for me. The only thing i want is to have her back and can't imagine a future without her.