Hello, I am new, My mom recently passed away, April 07, 2012. She had a massive heart attack, her heart was enlarged, she had a blood clot, and her liver was degenerating. I held a grudge against her for 3 months and the day I go to see her, she collapses...I didn't even get to say anything. This was on the 4th of April...on the 07th my family and I agreed to take her off life support. My dad and I stayed in the room as they did so...I seen so much. I have trouble remembering memories because all I see is her last few minutes. I am twenty years old. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to face, and I feel like I am facing it alone. 

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You are not alone.. We care and I will keep you in my prayers.

Thank you! I feel that one grudge ruined my life. I have learned not to hold grudges!!!!

You are not alone, hun. You have us here to talk to anytime you need it. I know in real life it may seem that way, because the people around you either don't talk about it, or don't really want to hear about it, I have the same problem myself.  I recently found out my father passed away in November of 2011. I hadnt talked to him in about a year (for no reason really, just lost touch) and I was wondering what he was up to so I wrote him a letter to his last known address, and I found out from his former landlord. Worst way to find out. His family that lived there with him never even bothered to tell me or try to contact me, and I know they knew how to. My fiancee doesnt really talk about it, and I think me being upset around him makes him uncomfortable, so I cry when he is not home, and I do not let him see me sad. I know it feels horrible now, and you have alot of regrets...just try to remember the good times. If you are feeling sad or down, try writing her a letter. Trust me, it feels kind of strange at first, but it does help. I write my dad letters every now and then. If you ever need someone to talk to, dont hesitate to message me on here.

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