I have not been looking forward to weekends for a while now.  they don't mean as much to me any more.  This weekend though my big sister was coming down and that should have made me feel better, but when she called and said she was on her way and we were going to go Christmas shopping my heart started racing.  I had an anxiety attack that got so bad I had to lay down and put a cold wash cloth on my head.  I did not want to disappoint her, but that was the worst feeling in the world.  I could not breath, I could not stop crying.  My youngest daughter sat beside me on the bed until the crying subsided.  I hate it when that happens in front of my kids.  I just don't know how to stop them.

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Comment by MIchael A Ballard on December 3, 2012 at 11:17pm
Hi Kelly Jo. Very sorry for your loss. My mom and wife passed in 2011. You will find peace of mind. Try warm baths with a meditation music cd and a lit candle. Please understand the trauma triggers anxiety but your nerves calm down later. Exercise, walks, vitamins also are great. Take care of yourself because those we have lost wouldnt want us miserable. Am here for you.

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